Downtrodden

Wrote in angst.






Have you ever tried to hold back tears, looking up so that they wouldn't start falling? Have you ever regretted not crying? Have you ever tried to think about something depressing so that the tears could start falling?

Crying is useless. It doesn't help whatever situation you're in, it only complicates whatever it is more. What's more, it reveals vulnerability and weakness. Once people see you crying, they immediately see you as a weak crybaby, a little kid, who expects people to help him fix his situation when he knows perfectly well that he and only he can fix his own problems, not anyone else. There shouldn't be any reason for anyone to cry. It's useless, a waste of time, unnecessary.

I don't need people complicating my life. I don't need people's help and I don't need people's complaints. I don't need people's views on me and I don't need people's insults. I don't need people replacing my instrument with some other crappy one and I don't need people telling that they're not trying to punish me when they know fully well that they are. I don't need people thinking that intentions justify actions and I don't need people telling me what I can't do. I don't need people treating me like a child and I don't need people thinking they're doing what's best for me. I don't need people pretending they care and I don't need people's false facades. I don't need people. Not one. Not anyone.